Saturday, April 29, 2006

Thursday, April 27, 2006

Addiction | by ~mibi -- via DeviantArt


addiction - Complete Piece

have you ever been an addict. and im not talking
about the hey-i-like-to-do-this-alot type of addict.
im talking about the
if-i-dont-get-it-right-now-im-going-to-fucking-blow-someones-head-off
type of addict. im an addict. ive never blown anyone
to get it. i dont think i would. but i havent been
given the opportunity to either. the reason i say 'i
dont think i would' is because i like to pretend that
i still have something thats mine. dignity, pride,
standards. but i know i would easily toss those away
just to get it. i know because i have. so all i
really have is it. for one hour. for two hours. for
fifteen minutes or however long it last. however long
i can afford it to last. ill be high for fifteen
minutes if thats all i can get.

im an addict. i dont get high just to get high. i
get high just to get my mind off getting high for a
few hours. after a fix im good for eight hours.
maybe. then the last of my previous highs memory
cells dry up and i want. need. how can i get
my next fix. when. how soon. can i afford it.
scratch that. how soon.

i timed it once. seventy seven dollars got me high
for just shy of a hundred minutes. but i got my fix. and
yet i was broke. funny how they call it a fix. each
new fix is like a hollowtip exploding out my backside.
internal bleeding. external bleeding. but i dont
feel it. until i come down.

i should get help. i know. i should get help finding
it and paying for it because the more im high the more i
live. do i want to stop. yes. i want to stop
searching for my fix. i want to stop the hours
inbetween each fix thinking about the next fix each
fix whispering to me that it will be better than the
last fix. i want to stop. and i will. i will when
im rolling around in fields of my drug. when i wont
need a fix because its everywhere and i dont have to
get high because i already am and i will be forever
because everywhere i look is my drug and its holding
me and telling me that im sexy and i will never come
down because i live in a castle in the sky.

so now you know what addicts dream of.

i am an addict. and i love it. it has its positives
and negatives. and im positive im negative. or so im
told. by myself. my brain can hold two opposing
thoughts. one, that this fix is just what i needed.
and two, that i need a fix.

and now its time.

i can hear my drug calling. i pick up the phone.

i say hello.
she says i love you.
my fix.

and im good for another eight hours.

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Wednesday, April 26, 2006

Beyond magazine - Archives

Beyond magazine - Archives :

Beyond is a nonprofit, independent magazine that explores what it means
to be truly human.

Beyond delves into the questions and ideas that wake us up to where we come from, who are are, and where we are going.

We help our readers reflect on their lives while inspiring them to be instruments of justice, compassion, beauty, and meaning.

We collaborate with writers, poets, thinkers, activists, art lovers, philosophers, and readers to produce a well designed, thought provoking magazine.

We also strive to develop a community of readers and creators that continue to interact outside the pages of Beyond through online and face-to-face connections.

Friday, April 21, 2006

deviantART: Death and Taxes: ... by ~mibi

deviantART: Death and Taxes: ... by ~mibi: "After a year in the making... researching, number crunching, layouts, stock gathering, and lots of procrastinating, i am proud to say it is finally done.

the SUPERDEVIATION, or 'spot' as it was known to some, comes now with the final title.

Death and Taxes: A visual look at where your tax dollars go.

Most people are unaware of how much of their taxes fund our military, and those aware are often misinformed. Well here it is. Laid out, easy to read and compare.
With data straight from the White House.

I hope this makes people think and ask questions.

Why do we spend more on jets than we do on public housing?
Why is the Endowment for the Arts so small?
Whats with all this foreign military financing?

Im sure you can come up with numerous questions of your own. Unfortunately i dont have any answers. Our leaders do. Your president, his cabinet and your congress person have these answers. Ask them for the answers or better yet, demand them. "

HURT : Announcements

HURT : Announcements

A really cool band site that my buddy Matt turned me on to.